To My Future Child

Dear my future child,

One day, if it’s 2am and you find yourself in a world of complete despair,

Please don’t turn to strangers on the Internet for solace as I did.

Please climb into my bed and I will hold you until the demons sleep.

If it is Thursday morning and you’re too sad to move, I won’t force you to.

I will buy ice cream and we will watch your favorite TV show and I will remind you of your importance.

If you feel like you have no purpose, I will remind you that you were created entirely with love.

And every pain you feel, I feel as well.

When you’re sure that you can go on anymore, I will tell you that when I was a teenager I searched for peace at the bottom of a bottle of pain killers.

But years later when you were placed into my arms in the delivery room, I realized you were the reason I’ve been holding on for so long.. and you saved me.

So if you ever think about grabbing a vodka bottle and pain killers, put it down.

We will get into the car and I will drive until the sky turn magenta.

I will show you how the sun rises, encouraging you to rise too.

Sweetheart I refuse to be unaware of your sufferings, as the people around me were to mine.

With love,

Ray

(Your future Mum)